I still have Soap orders that need to be picked up! If you have an order to pick up give me a buzz asap so I can get these orders to you. I could use the cash for rent. I should be available later tonight and tomorrow so let me know! Happy New Year!

ya' know what, I'm officially going into some social hiding.

I think I need to at this point.

I make it very clear, I don't play anykind of social politics as it usually winds up in alot of hurt (believe me, I used to play them...and I did it well, I wound up very betrayed and with more drama in my life then I needed). It also leads to drama. There is a large split amoungst friends happening it seems, and I'm not going to play at it. or take sides.
But until things are a little more settled, I may not be seen outside of the lj-verse for awhile. I've got enough shit to worry about right now, such as my root canal and xmas.

I'll do a bigger post about my views on social politics (it's been 2 days in writing), but for now...I'll see everyone eventually.

ok, was going to do a longer post, but I got distracted by this (and food...can only stomach chicken noodle soup, but damn it sounds good!)



I don't know which part of me geeked out more, my band geek side or my video game geek side. Man, I wish we'd done that in highschool! colorgaurd would've rocked dressed as video game characters!

I'm hoping to get my ass on stage and performing by the new year.

So, here's the deal...aside from hitting up thrift stores when my stomach isn't so virus-y...I may actually need to make one of my costumes (new bit I thought up, that I gotta' work on coreographing with another scottish dancer...), any scottish dancers out there...think modernized scottish national costume (I'll start off with the original...but, yeah...ask me about the rest). I'm still not totally happy with my sewing capabilities and think this would be an opportune time to start learning.

So any of my friends who know a thing or 2 about sewing wanna' help me out? I don't have alot of money, but um...I can order a mean pizza (I just can't eat it apparently).

In other news, virus is a lil better....I just got a lil feverish about a half hour ago. but I can eat a little more then I could yesterday.

So Thanksgiving weekend of 2007 can officially suck my hypothetical dick and go to fucking hell!

After a rather beligerant customer, no really, she nearly cold cocked me until I warned her against it and getting a lecture about it after the dumb bitch called my boss...I'm officially pissed, stressed and ready to sleep for about a day.

yep.

still stressed as fuck about my goddamn tooth...more later, I need ice cream and bed...

Hey everyone,

If you don't have anywhere to be Thanksgiving, swing by my place! We're having an orphan dinner, bring your favorite dish (if you can), it'd be great to see people.

I'll be making a Scottish desert loaded with..well, Scotch.

Right now, I'm uber Thankful for a certain boy who just said I remind him of Shirley Manson! :D

So, I went to the dentist today...

The Good: It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I have an icky history w/dentists being too rough on my sensitive teeth and speaking to me in a very condescending tone. not today, they took xrays, didn't poke too much at the tooth because they didn't want to hurt it! woot.

The Bad: I either have to get a root canal (which will be a little more work then a usual one due to how the tooth broke) or possibly yank the tooth and get an implant. It's my call apparently...so far the root canal is what I'm thinking, want a consult on the other option, just so I know.

The good: I told them my finantial situation and they're totally willing to work on a payment plan with me.

The bad: I need to have $350 down to get the procedure done (since I'm not insured and all). Much as I am scared shitless at either prospect and it's gonna' hurt (be worse if I don't get it done however...), it needs to get done.

all in all, not a terrible visit...

So, I'm eating some pizza tonite when I feel a hard lil chunk of something after I took a bite, hoping it's burnt crust but knowing it's not..

I chipped off half of my fucking tooth...fuck. And guess what? no insurance...fuck...

it sucks, it's noticable when I smile...so, yay insecurity...

I guess I'm going to see my mom's dentist on Monday (I have to work all weekend and desperatly need the money) to see if I can't work something out.

yay root canals and/or crowns...fun times...really...

I'm not in the greatest space right now...

There's alot going on in my head, and I'm not overly comfortable talking about it.

Part of me wants to, but part of me just wants to retreat inward. it sucks. I'm not saying anyone out there is a bad friend, I just can't figure out what I'm comfortable telling to who...

this sucks...

after the week I've had, tonite was a much needed escape.

more later, drunky now...I will feel this in the morning

Ok, so I'm looking for someone who is willing to let me borrow their digital camera for a couple lil projects I have. doesn't have to be an SLR either.

I did my very first airbrushed portrait this weekend. It's for marielouise00's daughter Clara. It's of John Lennon. Anyway, I want to get it up online and such for critique at a couple airbrush communities and on my site. and get the shirt to marielouise00.

I did have a camera with me this weekend, even got an image cd, which is missing. gone. I have tore apart my apartment, my car, it's gone. Which sucks cuz not only did it have photos of the finished work, but the process going into it. and a random shirt design I was asked to do that kinda' pushed my creativity (in a good way).


ear still blech...went to the walker today, will have an update on that later.

4dramatic_flair, get a hold of me about tomorrow

*checks calender*

yep...it's November...cue the ear infection...



woot...


fuck my ear hurts...

augh...I wish.

Sorry for no updates recently...I have NOT been sleeping well. For some reason, I have this fun tendancy that I will get a rush of nightmares/night terrors spanding about a week.

yep...so, i won't sleep well and it takes me forever to convince myself to actually go to bed.

that's been this week...I'm also paranoid as fuck, crankier then hell..and depressed. I damn near cried at work yesterday from exhaustion.

one of the more recent dreams about some kind of parasite (yeah..icky buggy type things are a reoccuring theme lately)..caused me to actually leav a nice lil mark because in the dream I was scratching at my face...when I woke up, I was feeling around my face..checked the mirror and had a nice red spot where I was scratching in my sleep.

fun stuff huh? so add some insecurity and that's how I've been feeling most of the week.

I intend to hit Girls' night tonight after work (was asked by boss if I was available...I desperatly need the money)...I don't think I'll be spending the nite as different sleep environments could make things worse. woot...

on the plus side, I'm working on a portrait shirt. it'll be my first...hoping it turns out..

Well, it looks like I may head out to Ground Zero tonite...

apparently there's a zombie theme. I gotta' bring my zombie self out once more (at least).

I should be there around midnight...I gotta' work until 11. later!

hey, manna_panna..did you wanna' go to Scottish Dance tonight?

hey, marielouise00...do you have the day off tomorrow and if so do you wanna' help me go shopping for my work dinner thing tomorrow nite?

amazing night!

Thanks to people who get me off my sad ass and make me feel better.

more substantial post later. sleep now.

Was it just me or was it a rather sucky day for most people?

I'll have a post with some good news soon...

however, it seems like it was a rather down day...I'm having money troubles...nowhere wants to work around a freelancer it seems and I won't give up my job at the booth...I'm enjoying my work.

and much as I try to carry on and put on my big girl face in this month...

I miss my dad...

So, 4dramatic_flair brought up a good point that I've been thinking on.

I need a stage name! any help is vastly appreciated, I will post a poll later if people come up with some names for me. my brain=no function today...weekend busy...me=sore.

Also, on the burlesque topic. 4dramatic_flair I have the first batch of film from last week, I'm working with the photos in photoshop (I asked them not to color correct at the lab, but they did....plus I'm picky and have some ideas for the photos); I am doing what I can to have cds out to the girls by Wed or a book.

anywho, I'm off for now.

Alright, you have 1 more chance to go to the St. Paul Art Crawl

Today 12-5pm. be there!